3 years old…..

Dear Scarlett,

It's been a couple of months since I have written to you. You have been sick and I have been busy with you and work. I've been sick with Mono and it's really had me slow down lately. I have so many photos that I want to share with you. I hope that I can get a few posts down within the next week or so. Two days before your third birthday, you had surgery to get tubes put in your ears. Too many ear infections and way too many antibiotics have taken a toll on you. I was a nervous wreck but you did great and I'm so pleased that you have been doing well since the procedure over 2 weeks ago. Your 3rd birthday photos I will post in a different post. Today I wanted to catch up on some of the fun we've been having over the last couple of months, even though you were sick most of the time. You are turning into such a little girl. I watched wedding photos tonight and even just a year ago, you were so small! It makes me sad and happy all at the same time.

You have been much happier since the surgery. I think that your ears had been bothering you before and that attributed to your cranky mood. We also got a new member to our family, a little French Bulldog named, Ula. She's pretty naughty but you lover her.

2 years 10 months.

Dear Scarlett,


You have begun a new phase in life. You are transitioning from toddler to little girl. As you approach three, I am finding it harder and harder to be patient with you. You seem to know just what to do to push my buttons and how to bring me to my breaking point.  I guess this is what they call the "terrible twos".  My mother has been waiting for this day since I was little. The day that I would get a dose of my own medicine as I too, was a strong-willed, independent girl who wouldn't give up. With a stubborn mind and a tough outer-shell, you are the spitting image of me. But I remember what it felt like.

And I don't think you are terrible-two.

You are growing. You are learning that life isn't always fair. You are testing boundaries. Learning new things from other children. Realizing that you have choices and options. Becoming aware that being human is not always fun.

There are good days too. Days that you make me laugh and smile. The way that you say, "...and Mickey in the morning light" while saying bedtime prayers makes me smile every time.
The way you pretend to be the teacher and shout to your dolls, "Sit down now, I'm not going to tell you again."Your sweetness shines through even in your naughty moments. You reach your arms for me and ask for a big hug. You love to say, "I love you Pet Pet Pooch." at bedtime so that I will have the stuffed doggy give you kisses.


I am sad to see you leave the baby days behind. I have loved every stage. I will be honest, this new stage has been the hardest yet. I know that there will be harder ones to come.  I see that look in your eyes and I realize….you are just like me. This scares me. Why? I took the hard path. I fell off the path and sprinted towards the dark. I just wanted someone to understand me, someone to care. At a time when I needed someone the most, no one was there. I saw some pretty dark and lonely days. I never want that for you…ever.

 I envision you in 15 years. I'm sure that you will be head-strong and independent just like I was. But I hope that you are wiser than I was. I hope that you can see past the present. My dear Scarlett, no matter what is happening in life, or how hard times may be in the future, I promise you one thing. I will always be there. I won't leave you. Someday, you might be a mother and you will understand what it is like to have something you love so deeply walking around this world  so vulnerable and fragile. It's terrifying. I would do anything to protect you. You will always be my little girl. My Scarlett.


I love you.


Love, Mama.

2 years 9 months.

Dear Scarlett,

You are Mermaid obsessed. Anything that has to do with a mermaid, you are all about it!
Tantrums come more often now, usually when you are sleepy.
Favorite foods: Blueberries, strawberries, fruit snacks, drinkable yogurts, cereal in a bowl with no milk, waffles, and veggie chik-patties and melon. (You call all meat or meatless foods that look like meat, chicken.)

Favorite song: "Do You Want To Build A Snowman" Frozen Soundtrack.

You love: Your rain boots, Dancing, The Little Mermaid, Chitty Chitty Bang Bang, school, and pretending to drink coffee with me.

You don't like: Getting in the bath tub, and then getting out. ;) Getting up early (Just like your mama). Peas, or getting dressed.

We went ice skating with you for the first time this month. You did well for a 2 1/2 year old. Daddy did pretty good too, although you may have been better than him….haha.

Love Mama

Your First Movie Theater Experience: Frozen.

Dear Scarlett,

 I love when weekends like these come around. Ya know, the awesome ones that go down in the memory books as great weekends. 

Sunday, we took you to see your very first movie at the Theater. I have been looking forward to this all week. You did very well, as I expected. You are a movie buff. We saw Frozen. Lots of singing and two princesses were details from a movie that you gave 2 thumbs up. You didn't even flinch when the giant, scary snowman part came on. Possibly reading the book a few times helped prepare you. You came home and played with your Anna doll all day. You fed her, played house with her and spun her around. You remind me so much of myself when I was younger. I would see something and then be compelled to reenact it or play it out. My sweet little girl….I love you so...

Although I'm really not ready for the week to begin yet, we are all settled in at home preparing for work/school in the morning. The house is clean and the laundry is washed. Lunches prepped and you are snuggled in your bed fast asleep. 

Love Mama